I am in a battle; just as you are. What do we really believe? It's one thing to say we believe something, but when the situation demands that our philosophy be put into action, can we do it? That is the test.
If we fall apart under pressure, we are inauthentic and just a bag of wind. I don't want that - do you? If anything, I want to be more committed to my philosophy than I claim to be ... not less.
We are tested in little ways every day. Over a lifetime, the little tests develop into habit and eventually shape our character. Take a good look at yourself. Are you really two people? The one you want to be and the one you really are?
When you are battle-hardened and know what your reaction will be under fire, then you are worth something and very valuable as a leader.
So don't run from the test...Run into it!